Latency : the state of existing but not yet being developed or manifest; concealment.
In photography the latent image is the invisible image on light sensitive material that has not yet been developed. In the art project Latency, I am interested in using photography to explore the latency within myself as I navigate the world while living with an invisible disability.
As I move through space I am perceived as healthy but inside of my body my immune system mistakes my tendons, ligaments, joints, and sometimes organs as invaders, and actively works to break them down. This experience, while concealed, is one that has greatly shaped who I am as a person, how I perceive the world, and is an experience from which I draw a lot of knowledge and power.
In Latency I use the alternative photographic processes of chlorophyll prints, that uses UV light to print images onto leaves. I am printing medical imagery from my recurring visits to Dr’s to check to progress of my disease. As the project expands I am beginning to print latency portraits of people from within the chronic illness and disability community.
I am interested in creating a body of work that will reveal what is occurring that is not readily seen. Using a low-tech processes to print high -tech imagery, I will create a statement that binary opposition does not exist (like healthy vs. sick, weak vs. strong, normal vs. abnormal) I am choosing to use alternative process to highlight the beauty and importance of experience outside of mainstream dialogue.
I am printing on leaves to highlight the organic nature of disability while also asking the viewer to confront the bodily impermanence we all share.
LoFi is an ongoing diaristic work, where I photograph my everyday experiences with a Holga camera.
A Holga camera is a low-tech camera made of plastic. Some of the characteristics of this camera are that it is prone to imperfections that appear on the images such as light leaks, dust, and scratches. This is due to the fact that the camera body is made of plastic and doesn’t fit together perfectly. So as a photographer I can have control over what I put in the frame, but I can never be sure of the results due to the lack of control over what happens inside the camera body. This means of working became meaningful and poetic to me as I was losing control over my own body after being diagnosed with a progressive autoimmune disease.
Many of my images are often of everyday mundane moments, but they become elevated through the characteristics of the camera. This means of working also helps me to embrace the fact that uncertainty is a natural state of being.
I cycle around wearing an 8x10 pinhole camera on my back making an exposure for the duration of my ride. With the blue sky as my background, my movement combined with the sunlight maps my travels onto the negative. The act of making transforms my movement into agency.
The California Coast Classic is an 8 day 525 mile bike ride from San Francisco to L.A. along highway 1. It is put on by the Arthritis Foundation to raise awareness about autoimmune forms of arthritis. Living with one of the 100 forms of auto immune arthirits myself, I participate in this event. For 3 years I photographed the experience with my LoFi camera, that I carried with me as I rode the coast.
When I was four months old a septic infection in my right hip manifested as degenerative autoimmune arthritis. For many years the arthritis lay dormant and undetected, silently moving me closer to immobility. In my twenties the arthritis in my hip became a loud and vocal presence in my life and the act of walking became increasingly challenging.
Entanglement of Movement and Memories maps 14 days before and 65 days after I underwent total hip replacement surgery. Small monitors interspersed in the gallery show looped videos made from a camera attached to my body or adaptive walking device. The video are of movements as I retrained my body to walk, repeating various paths, incrementally moving farther away from my bed. These paths are also made visible in the lines that envelop the walls floors and windows of the gallery.