Latency : the state of existing but not yet being developed or manifest; concealment.
In photography the latent image is the invisible image on light sensitive material that has not yet been developed. In the art project, Latency, I am using photography to explore the latency within myself as I navigate the world while living with an invisible disability. As I move through space I am perceived as healthy but inside of my body my immune system mistakes my tendons, ligaments, and joints as invaders, and actively works to break them down. This experience, while concealed, is one that has greatly shaped who I am as a person and is an experience from which I draw a lot of knowledge and power.
In the project Latency I am using the alternative photographic processes of chlorophyll printing, which uses UV light to print photographic images directly onto leaves. I am printing medical imagery from my recurring visits to Dr’s to check to progress of my disease. I am also inviting people from within the disability culture community to submit their imagery for me to print as well. I am printing a more traditional portrait of each person and imagery they submit that highlights what they feel is invisible or unseen about their experience of living with invisible/chronic illness.
I am choosing to use alternative photographic process to highlight the beauty and importance of experience outside of mainstream dialogue. The action of printing medical imagery reclaims our medicalized bodies and our journey as patients, creating a new sense of agency. I am printing on leaves to highlight the organic nature of disability while also asking the viewer to confront the bodily impermanence we all share.
LoFi is an ongoing diaristic work, where I photograph my everyday experiences with a Holga camera.
A Holga camera is a low-tech camera made of plastic. Some of the characteristics of this camera are that it is prone to imperfections that appear on the images such as light leaks, dust, and scratches. This is due to the fact that the camera body is made of plastic and doesn’t fit together perfectly. So as a photographer I can have control over what I put in the frame, but I can never be sure of the results due to the lack of control over what happens inside the camera body. This means of working became meaningful and poetic to me as I was losing control over my own body after being diagnosed with a progressive autoimmune disease.
Many of my images are often of everyday mundane moments, but they become elevated through the characteristics of the camera. This means of working also helps me to embrace the fact that uncertainty is a natural state of being.
There Is A Crack In Everything, That's How The Light Gets In
The California Coast Classic is an 8 day 525 mile bike ride from San Francisco to L.A. along highway 1. It is put on by the Arthritis Foundation to raise awareness about autoimmune forms of arthritis. Living with one of the 100 forms of auto immune arthirits myself, I participate in this event. For 3 years I photographed the experience with my LoFi camera, that I carried with me as I rode the coast.
San Simeon, October 2, 2013
Big Sur II, October 1, 2013
Monterey, September 30, 2013
Big Sur, October 1, 2013
Solvang, October 2, 2015
Monterey II, September 30, 2013
Santa Monica, October 3, 2015
Ventura, October 2, 2015
Big Sur, September 29, 2015
San Simeon II, October 1, 2103
17 Mile Drive, September 30, 2013
Gaviota Pass, October 1, 2013
Santa Barbara, October 3, 2013
L.A., October 3, 2015
Big Sur II, September 29, 2015
Turning Arrows Into Flowers
I cycle around wearing an 8x10 pinhole camera on my back making an exposure for the duration of my ride. With the blue sky as my background, my movement combined with the sunlight maps my travels onto the negative. The act of making transforms my movement into agency.
September 27, 2010, 4:24 - 5:03 pm
October 8, 2010, 9:58 - 10:26 am
September 30, 2010, 5:30 - 5:44 pm
November 12, 2010, 2:51 - 3:18 pm
October 5, 2010, 5:46 - 6:17 pm
October 9, 2010, 11:46 -12:28 pm
8x10 pinhole camera & backpack set -up
Entanglement of Movement and Memories
When I was four months old a septic infection in my right hip manifested as degenerative autoimmune arthritis. For many years the arthritis lay dormant and undetected, silently moving me closer to immobility. In my twenties the arthritis in my hip became a loud and vocal presence in my life and the act of walking became increasingly challenging.
Entanglement of Movement and Memories maps 14 days before and 65 days after I underwent total hip replacement surgery. Small monitors interspersed in the gallery show looped videos made from a camera attached to my body or adaptive walking device. The video are of movements as I retrained my body to walk, repeating various paths, incrementally moving farther away from my bed. These paths are also made visible in the lines that envelop the walls floors and windows of the gallery.